| I will not allow myself to fall in love again. I don't think I'll be able to survive another misfortune if it did happen. Love hurts--especially when we're suffering from the death of someone we love. It is such a time that we look at ourselves and wonder what possesses us to love as strongly and as deeply as we do. Why can't we love without having it affect the rest of our lives? To love, and to be protected from it? Of course that kind of love is not something we would truly value or benefit from. That would be to withdraw from life, to exist in an emotional exile, and to not feel all the joys of the human experience. Although I know that my ability to love with such intensity is a precious gift that not all of us are privileged to share, I want nothing more right now than to have never fallen so deeply in love. |
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| This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin' off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal for the life I lead
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be |
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| What keeps me up at night is knowing that you'll never laugh again.. never smile, cry, have kids, and grow old...
Tomorrow will be a very difficult day.. I've been dreading it for the past few months. My sanity will be tested. |
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| this is my december
this is my time of the year
this is my december
this is all so clear
this is my december
this is my snow covered home
this is my december
this is me alone
and i give it all away
just to have somewhere to go to
give it all away
to have someone to come home to |
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| I want to be happy again. I need to be happy again.
There will be nothing happy about Thanksgiving.. |
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